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i wanted to post this on facebook but decided not to lest all the preachers come nagging at me.

kang is depressed over his pathetic life when he sees others in bliss.

i was watching [rehearsal techinque for concert band] and in this dvd, tomoki ubata shows us the practical method of teaching inagakuen wind orchestra. no doubt, the sound is well-balanced, awesome playing. i was very absorbed watching it and i wished the video didn't end. this got me reminiscing of the times when we were in japan, nagoya attending their band practices at aichi meiden high school. this dvd had glimpses of their school classrooms, the buildings and houses outside their school and the talk and spirit of the japanese. this almost got me an urge of getting married in japan, move over and make my kids attend the school there. from the few countries i've went, namely malaysia, thailand, hongkong and japan, the best asian country i would say is japan. cleanest environment, technology is good, the culture of being polite to others. but of course, the high standard of living comes with high level of stress and discipline. it is also because of this reason, bands in japan can acheive the renowned reputation of good sound, balance, rhythm and articulation. even japanese composings have their unique style like satoshi yagisawa with his love of using tom toms in his pieces. 
i wished i could have gone to japan this time round too, but i cant. the itenery this time round is much better, especially visit tokyo disneyland. i envy conductors like ms sia, oura, glosz, ito senseh who can constantly travel and doing what they like and earning just as much. maybe i should do the same too. 

HAHAHA LAMO, UNDEAD JOURNAL for real?! *the halloween theme for livejournal*

sometimes i wonder whether i'm evil, feasting on others' misery to rebuild myself. but what about me, having done stupid things, getting scarred and scars getting ripped again and forming even deeper ones. okay kua zhang, but let me indulge in my dark corner for now. i promise to be sympathetic. please don't judge me.

anyway i've just started watching Heroes ! awesome show. i'm only at the first season episode 4 where the future messenger stops the train to fulfil his mission. my latest addiction after chang jin, my fav korean drama which i finally watched and screened through every single scene, scrutinized each detail after 2965943265 years, not to mention this show has repeated itself many times on tv. but it's so hard to catch every episode daily. you know on certain days you don't go home early ? in anyway, i would say chang jin is super draggy, and all incidents seem to be connected. just like heroes, all individuals are connected somewhat, somehow. and it's more of a horror gore, certain scenes definitely freaked me out with the suspense and the music, the blood and the violence.

kayzee-weekly

juren has left for aussie for his pilot course just last sunday. we, namely the single's club woke up uber early to send him off at the airport. he will be gone for 6-9 months.



it was all cool until AFTER the sendoff, then i felt the nostalgia. juren's been the one driving us around, bringing us to food places and makan. we could meet up frequently cause of him. thing's will be quite different now. oh well, i'm sure we'll still meet up but with a less nigger dog barking. and that reminds me, van has gone to aussie for so long already. one gone and definitely makes much difference now. CHANGE. adapt to it. and everyone's leaving one by one. su's going to dont-know-where for her last year course. not soon, but definitely will.

kayzee-weekly has so much updates. but don't worry, it is audience selective.

okay feeling tired and random, got to go sleep. nights people !

i'm happy i've moved on. cause i still see that person is still stuck in the valley, even though the one to push me deep down in the first place.
i lament, for it did not last, for it was a lie.
i rejoice, for it did not last, that i can see the truth earlier.
i envy, for it did not last, and other people were enjoying your prescence.
i snigger, for it did not last, and things are bad between you and all of them.
basically what i foresee, is happening. 
but oh well, i've already detached from all these childish fickering moments.
glad to be over.

anyway it has been rather busy at work and outside of work. juren's leaving tml for australia for 6 months and i hope we can meet up for a very last time tonight. i've been non-chalent, to precious friends around me and not catching them while they last. i've tried my best. but i'm so lazy at times i don't want to bother. not because i don't care, but because i'm lazy and i really do need some alone time.

but i'm glad to have what i have now.

I MISS.....



louves (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SUGAR BRO !



louves (:

i feel so comfortable with you.
though we're not from the same cca, we still have so many topics to talk about.
omg. what am i saying. haha
im thankful to have known you.

i cried. cried terribly just now......



















when i was cutting the onions.

addicted to english folk song suite at the moment. the version benji sent me is pretty clean and well-balanced. just love it when the bass supports the band with a good tone and the right articulation. you know it when you hear a pyramid or an hour-glass balance.

i was especially nostalgic when i went back temasek ytd for alumni. just before leaving the school, i was looking at the photo collage on the pillars and walls of the podium which the school had spent extra effort to change them every year. i see smiles. the many happy people from the current batch. it struck me how all of us were so simple. i remember the simple things we did. like waiting for each other to go canteen, band, study together. the only motivation to go school is to accompany each other.

i want to go back to the same life again. there had been problems but life was simple. everyone has grown up now, leading different lives with different thinkings. there are so many jarring issues now. and it gets worse every year. take this year for example, so many dramas. but im thankful because i gained much experiences, dealing with all sorts of people.

though i love prue and her powers, i wished i had piper's, so that i can freeze time and blast you out of this world! or perhaps i shd have phoebe's, so i can look forward in time to prevent what might happen, and to see through the devil's disguise.

i miss my sugars. ):
i only want my sugars <3

haha i believe in karma.
if you dont give me what i want, im sure you wont get what you want.
what goes around comes around
you've just messed with the wrong person!

and i cant wait to go hongkong !

and thailand with ozy (:

yayness ! hong kong trip is booked !

 im mean =x

plunged into one of the busiest week. concert's this sunday. and then band almost everyday. visiting mum and friend. rushing here and there.

on a lighter note, my mum can be discharged today ! because i realised im quite dependent on her actually. she washes my clothes, uniforms, irons them, wakes me up for work etc..it will be pretty bad if she goes back to malaysia soon for recuperation.

im supposed to sing later, but i haven chose my song. -.- just hope i dont croak later and everything will be fine.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BFF !!!

i cant believe i just went running, at this unearthly hour, around bedok north sec 2 times.
there may be thots of seeing woman in white, but no. i saw lots of AN. like wtf are they doing at this hour. 
worse still, i have to smell the air filled with their scene. my god..
and it's only 2 rounds im dying already. super cui. last time i ran was like a yr ago?
i rather go swimming...it's so tiring to run.. ahhhh

cui cui cui...
 

i want to go thailand ! bleahs

finally i bought the new mariah cd, e=mc²



super cantek !

also found this on the mag rack.



absolute glamour and festive.

as i was listening to the cd, amongst 'touch my body', 'bye bye' all these hits, my attention was drawn to the last song 'i wish you well'. 

this is a very simple song. just plain piano playing and mariah showcasing her voice with bits of backup vocalist here and there. no sluttiness, bitchiness, no "touching of body". just soothing music, relaxed voice, the best song chosen to end this album.

as you might not know, mariah is engaged and married to a rapper Nick Cannon. this guy appeared on her "bye bye" mtv and apparently he did not say bye to mariah. they had a quiet ceremony in Mariah's Bahamas home with only 3 of her friends, 3 of his friends and some people doing her hair, dolling her up. they did not want the media to be on them, of cos you might have guessed. okayy you may think the diva's bringing her standards down but he promised her a formal wedding next year. let's wait and see. because im not so sure how a 2 week romance could end up a lifetime commitment, but they already had tattoos on both their backs, with nick having "MARIAH" written from shoulder to shoulder in font size 81763 and mariah having a puny butterfly just above her butt crack with "mrs cannon" written in the middle, instead of a worm.

and so now you still can call mariah mc, mariah cannon or simply mc stands for mrs. cannon. or even the pun on the album says mc² = mariah carey cannon. whichever the case, i wish them well.


*do look out for Starbucks Dark Mocha Frappuccino blended coffee from 2 Jun onwards! A combination of rich dark choclate, starbucks latin american coffeess and milk, blended with ice and topped with whipped cream.

recently im always feeling thirsty and hot. i have to turn on my fan to level 2. and im still feeling hot.

is it the weather? or is it me?


and i went for blood donation. so cui. after like 30 secs i felt dizzy already. they had to pluck out the needle immediately. my pulse dropped from 132 to 102 and i was told i looked super pale. where got such a big sized person cannot donate blood one -.-



*do do you have a first aid kit handy?
 do do you know how patch up a wound
 tell me are are are are you are you patient understanding

hohoho sings to damaged. super addictive song.

recently i have many people telling me "i am disappointed in you.."

i guess i have really disappointed everyone and i am also disappointed with myself. i guess i got to learn from these mistakes. i cant force anyone to do anything anymore. i guess all is over. ):

just leave me alone for now or you all will get even more disappointed.